This is a pretty stressful time. Early Decision acceptances or rejections come out in just over a week. For many of us, these are our first choice schools and if there are people like me, then there really isn't a plan B.
As the date approaches I think more about actually going to college. Do I actually want to go? Is the school I applied to really good for me? I have no idea and no way to answer any of these questions. I begin to second guess myself, I think possibly to make the blow less powerful if I don't get in. To be honest I feel like I am okay in this in-between stage, where I have applied so its not up to me anymore, and I don't have to deal with the fact that I am in or not.
The main topic of conversation around anyone my age is college. You can't talk to a senior without finding out their biggest college fears or where they are applying, where they aren't. It is a common topic that has bonded us all together for this one moment in time. We are all waiting.
I know that the date when I find out will eventually come and I dread the moment when I physically have to open the email. I don't know if I will be able to do it. Also, am I going to open it alone? With my parents? With my friends? But I know that the letter will come and whatever happens happens and life will go on, but right now and I think all my peers would agree with me, that this feels like the most important decision of our lives.
I really enjoyed this blog post because it is really relatable. All high school seniors know what the stress of college feels like, and no one can really make it go away. When you said "The main topic of conversation around anyone my age is college." I could not agree more. I find as though I can't go anywhere social without getting at least one "So where are you thinking for college?" and I think this post pretty much sums that up.
ReplyDeleteI agree with this completely, and I also have to add that it's made even worse by the additional stress of school right now. I feel like most people took hard classes this year to give their gpa one final boost, and I, personally, am very overloaded from work from school and college things. I'm falling behind in my school work as it is, and if I don't get into the schools I applied early to I don't think that I'll be able to handle doing course work as well as more college applications. Also, on the "most important decision of our lives" front, I feel like I've already made my decision in applying ED to a school, and the idea that they can still decide not to take me scares me a lot.
ReplyDeleteThis really hits home right now, and you put into words exactly what I am feeling perfectly. I think almost everyone can relate to this feeling and confusion of their emotions currently, not knowing whats the right decision and just barely making it through this calmed stress stage. I know when I get the email that decides my fate for the next for years and possibly determines my future, I won't know if I will be relieved or just more anxious.
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